So impatient sometimes =,=
Random stuff that happens just because it tends to do that
So impatient sometimes =,=
Take You Higher: Goodwill & Hook N Sling
I have come to terms with the things I cannot change, the things I cannot fix, and the things that stand in our way.
I’ve made peace with the fires that threaten to burn everything around me.
I choose to be happy, to love, to laugh. This is who I am, and who I want to be. Just because you don’t want to believe truth doesn’t make me any different of a person, nor should it have you expect me to feel any different.
I will not fall to the whims and pressure of others. I may have been stumbling, but I regained my balance and am standing strongly against the forceful opposing winds.
Let me first start out by saying, you are beautiful. You will always be beautiful inside and out because God made you for a reason and purpose, to share His love to others and to be the best person you could ever be in life. You were not made to be unhappy, unloved, disrespected or any kind of negative connotation people will place upon you. You have the power to decide whether you will be happy or not, to respect yourself or not, to care about what they say or think, to be strong or beaten down by the blows of this sick cruel world we live in, this is your right. It takes a lot of work, but its worth it. It gets rid of anyone or anything that stands in your way because you will be able to find yourself, you will be able to be strong, and you will be able to stand in front of any adversary and hold your ground. It isn’t wrong wrong for you to cry, to feel pain, sadness, anger, and it isn’t wrong for you to let it out, it isn’t wrong for you to talk about it with those you love and trust. It isn’t wrong for you to be happy, to love, to be yourself, it isn’t wrong for you to shine. People will try to take advantage of you, whether it be with your sadness, or anger, or happiness, or love. Things like that just happen, but you will have people (like your family, or completely trustworthy friends) that will have your back no matter what the situation. God will always be there for you, even if you don’t feel like He is, even if you reject the very notion of Him, He will be there and I pray that He watch over, guide, and protect you.
Now let me say you are going to fall in love. In love with yourself, in love with friends, your family and you’re going to fall in love with a boy. You’re going to fall in love with a boy that makes you feel like you can’t breathe, that makes you feel like the happiest person on earth, that makes you feel like you belong in their arms. However, that boy has no right to change who you are. He has no right to be anything but a gentleman to you, he has no right to disrespect you and he has no right to break you. He has no right to have you make excuses for him, he has no right to drive you away from your friends or family, he has no right to make you feel ugly or inferior, and he has no right to serve any dishonor towards your parents, your morals, your beliefs, and your body. Don’t ever feel stuck in a relationship because you can leave if you ever need to, even if it feels like you are ripping out his heart, he will get over it. It is important to understand this. It is important, also, that you know that a boy doesn’t “complete you” contrary to popular belief. You don’t need a boy to live, you have a strong heart, lungs and a strong head on your shoulders, you are always fine without him. Boys aren’t like the ones in the movies, those are fictional made up characters with scripts, of course they are going to know what to say because someone wrote it for them and told them to do it! In real life, no one ever knows what to say or do. Be patient and focus on yourself, yes, it is amazing and nice to have someone to make you feel beyond special and loved (other than your family), but if you are ‘single’ then make sure you don’t rush anything. Have fun, you don’t have to worry about having to concern yourself with the stress caused by a boy, be independent, you have to learn how to love and live with yourself before you ever can really love someone anyway (then you will end up being needy and having to be dependent). Figure out the person you want to be, focus on God, become and do the things you need to do, and then, that person that is meant to be in your life, even if it is for a brief time, will find you and you will find them.
You are absolutely amazing, a gift from God, and I cannot express how happy I am to have you in my life. There are so many more words I can write to you, but for now, this is it. <3
It scares me, that feeling…that one where I can’t stop thinking about you…because if there was an end, I know I will be weak to it, that feeling…
Have you ever looked into a persons eyes and saw a glimpse of what would come if they were apart of your life?